When we began this new adoption journey in July, I was certain that we could have traveled to meet Maxim by October. The pieces fell effortlessly into place at first. Then came October.
We have met one hurdle after another. One emergency followed by the next. The stress of fixing paperwork in a rush on Fridays, hunting down notaries on Sundays, driving to the state capitol in the wee hours of Monday mornings, racing to ship paperwork in time, and trying to continue to care for nine children at the same time is crushing.
But I continue to have peace in my heart. I cannot tell you if this is the peace that surpasses understanding, or if my poor heart is just numb. It's possible that I have built a wall to protect my heart. Adoption from Eastern Europe is never a sure thing. But I keep taking the next step, in faith that this is what I am called to do. December is looking more realistic.
I recently received a few new photos of little Max. He's a happy child, but he doesn't look well. I'm feeling some cracks in my wall. The closer I get, the harder it is to keep my composure. This boy needs out now. Yesterday. Two years ago. He needs someone to pour love and life into him.
Will you just look at those scrawny legs? And those fingers and wrist. Too thin. Not cool. I have a new sense of urgency...
...which is why I'm happy to announce that Maxim is the child of the month of November for an organization called Ten for Orphans!!
Ten For Orphans is an organization which seeks to unite people everywhere with the common goal of raising funds that will help facilitate orphans with special needs having a family of their own by removing one of the biggest roadblocks to the process–that of money. What if thousands of people were making a small $10 donation monthly? Think of the impact!
I urge to you to go to http://www.tenfororphans.org/. I challenge you to donate $10 (or more!) for Maxim and then commit $10 every month to the children that this organization serves. Be a part of a modern day miracle.
2 comments:
Oh Stephaine I feel your pain and some days I will be honest there is NO keeping it together, on thise days my husband thinks I'm crazy and he just can't understand. That makes me feel all alone. I hate that you feel the way you do but I am so happy to know I am not alone!!! That wall will come done when the time is right I will be praying!!!
It is so strange to see him with longish hair! But yes, even around his eyes you can see the difference compared to the photo on your button. :-( And WAY too scrawny!
I understand about the "wall". I built a pretty good one with J - or at least I thought I did. I was not convinced he was even alive until I saw him being carried into the room. LOL
Praying for his health and your travel date ASAP!
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