I was really looking forward to the start of school this fall. I love my kids and I enjoy being around them all the time. I LIKE them a lot. I just needed a little more margin.
So it has caught me completely off guard at the level of chaos I have been experiencing. Annoyances and problems rising up on my left and my right, drama to spare...that has been the theme over the past month.
If we were adopting, I would chalk it up to spiritual warfare. Perhaps it's that anyway. I can't say for sure, but I cannot see past the busy-ness right now. I'm pushing a boulder up a hill and I can't stop or it will crush me. I gotta keep pushing until I get to the top of the hill.
The icing on my boulder was coming home from a doctor day trip to find my house with partial power. It was a broken air conditioner sucking power and blowing random breakers. Since the house was so warm, I didn't feel that it would be wise to bake my sweet Max a birthday cake. No one felt like having a party either.
So, the story of Max's life continues...wait a little longer. A little longer for your first real birthday party, Max. I promise it's going to be fun! You are SO loved here.
Thank you for being YOU and learning to communicate with us. I'll make sure you always have plenty to EAT and DRINK. Thank you for trusting us so completely. You are a real jewel!
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